Yay, actual updates! To
begin, I shall do a revised "by the numbers" since that seemed to be
a big hit (and by that I mean my friends who I disclosed I am writing this to
really seemed to like it, and I like it, so yeah.)...
My Job Search By The Numbers
Days since I began
applying: 188
Days until I am a
“Master”: 3
Days until I really
freak out if I don’t have a job: 86
Applications Put In: 25
First-Round Interview
Offers: 4
Second-Round Interview
Offers: 2
Anddddd
I think we’ll stop there because I’m feeling pretty optimistic right now!
So,
basically, good things came from a couple of my interviews last week. I have an
on-campus on Monday, and I got a call from another institution today offering
an on-campus. Pretty cool. I also have a top pick…which I am interviewing for
on Monday…and if I get that position…well, I guess I’m done! Crazy to think it
might just end all of a sudden.
And
good things have been happening for my wonderful friends! I have one who had a
first-round Skype interview yesterday and they literally flew him out for an
on-campus TODAY, another got her first on-campus offer today, and one of my
wonderful roomies accepted a position today! What fantastic things!!
AND
on top of those things, I’m FINISHED with my Master’s degree! Hooding is on
Friday, but I turned in my final paper yesterday! So excited to finally be done
(at least for a little while). I have a few work projects I am wrapping up, but
it’s weird to not feel constantly overwhelmed by my to-do list! I actually read
a book for fun!
Overall,
things are good right now. Interviews are coming in, friends are having
successes that make me so happy for them, I’ve earned a Master’s degree and get
to celebrate that with my family and people that I love in the very near future…so
why am I so not happy right now? Ugh. I don’t get it. I know it most likely has
to do with biology factors that are out of my control, but learning to accept
that is a pain. I have all of these wonderful things happening, which then
makes me feel even worse/more guilty about being in a rough patch with my
emotions/mental state/whatever. Is that weird? Also I know that change and
uncertainty is triggering for me, and regardless of the exciting-ness that is
this process, it’s all about change and uncertainty…and as much as I can
cognitively try to ignore that, it’s still there. It’s frustrating. Like,
really frustrating.
But
I didn’t come here to complain, and that’s not what you want to hear about
anyway. Besides, I have things to do! A hooding ceremony and fun times with
family and friends to get ready for, work projects to wrap up, interviews to
prep for (and finish my outfits for!!), and a pleasure reading list a mile long
;) Plus soaking up these last few days of not being a professional….it’s crazy
to think about!
For
some reason, this quote sprang to mind when I was trying to figure out how to
close this post, both for readers and for me (writing here is a very…reflective/emotive/etc.
process for me), so I’ll just leave it right here…
When I dare to be
powerful - to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less
and less important whether I am afraid. – Audre Lorde
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