Oh dear oh dear oh dear. I swear I have posted in the last 2 weeks -- only once, unfortunately...but I know I wrote one last week...I wonder where it went? The mysteries of technology astound me. Or maybe I'm just losing it. Either is probably just as likely.
Anyway, apologies for my absence. I wish I could tell you I would make this one a good one to make up for it but...
So what's been going on in job search world? Well, first I can tell you that I'm getting realllllllly sick of answering that question - and I know all of our second-years are....yet every time we are hanging out with someone that we don't see all the time (which at this point is officially people I live with or work with because that's all I do...) we can't seem to ask each other anything else. And it's all the first-years ask too. And people we work with. And my parents. And my friends from home. And strangers off the street.
Okay, maybe not that last one, but I feel like I'm constantly talking about it, and the more I talk, the more freaked out I get. Maybe I've been subconsciously avoiding my digital world because I'm tired of talking about it? Haha, whatever.
Basically, no news for now. Still doing applications (though I feel guilty for not doing any over the weekend because I was focused on an assignment for school), but haven't had any interviews except for the one phone interview. Honestly I'm not that worried - I know that it's still early in the process, especially since I'm not looking at housing/res life positions. But the process seems to be starting a lot earlier in a lot of areas this year, and I'm starting to feel a little left out and anxious.
I do have some great news from people I love though! One of my roommates and one of my very best friends in the program both had wonderful on campus interviews last week and I have my fingers crossed that their phones will be ringing any moment now. On top of that, my amazing co-intern from the summer got an offer!! I am so unbelievably excited for him - it's the perfect opportunity for him-- and it means we don't have to worry about competing against each other, ha. Perfect!
On my end of things though....well, I've accepted that a vagrant life where I just travel around and hang out with all of my friends who get great jobs in cool places is also an option. Unfortunately I have far too much stuff to live in my car, so I guess if I want to keep up my shoe addiction that should be motivation to get a job. Kidding. Mostly...
Right now I'm in a frustrating place because seriously all I want to do is apply for jobs. I have a spreadsheet a mile long, and I just want to tackle it and apply apply apply apply apply. Butttttttt I have huge assignments for school and tons of work and prac projects left, and those aren't going to do themselves. I just have zero motivation to do them. I know I need to focus on finishing strong and all that jazz, but I just want to apply for jobs and hang out with friends and lay in my bed dreading the future. Is that so much to ask?
Haha, I don't mean to throw a pity party. Really things are fine. I'm hoping to start to hear back from places soon, but until then I'll keep trucking along and applying and doing my work and living the dream. I'm actually super happy right now...I have an amazing family members out accomplishing great things (my sister just got tapped for the most selective leadership honorary at our undergrad institution - I am so proud of her!!!), friends who keep me smiling and holding my head up, a new, well...no labels, but someone who makes me grin goofily all the time, work that I am passionate about, students I care about....all kinds of great things. Just yesterday a student I taught last semester asked if I would write a letter of recommendation for her, and today one of the students I advise asked if I would be a reference for her. How cool is that?!?!?
I'll close this out on a happier note -- tonight I called my grandmother since I hadn't talked to her in a while. I wanted to let her know that I dropped an invitation to my Hooding ceremony in the mail to her, and I wanted her to have it to show off (she loves showing off the accomplishments of my sister and I) even though I knew she couldn't make the drive for the ceremony. She was telling me how proud she was of me and how she knew my accomplishments now would make my Pappaw proud...he was my grandfather who passed away when I was 6, right as I finished up kindergarten. He was an educator for all of his life and a well-known high school principal in my hometown for many many years, and he was a huge influence in my life. He taught me to read before I was even in kindergarten, and I am confident that my love for learning and for educating others is driven by those few early years I had with him. She then asked me an interesting question....she asked if I thought he knew what I was doing, if he could still see us. Now, don't worry, I'm not about to expound on my spiritual views on the afterlife...instead I told her that whether or not he can see it, I do the work that I do to carry on his legacy, and I think that's the important part. That I seek to share the gift that he shared with me and so many other people. And I truly do believe that. I know it's sappy, but it's true. I hadn't really thought about how important he is to me still, and how much of an influence he has been on me. I just know that whenever I see the dogwoods blooming all over campus, I think of him.
No comments:
Post a Comment