Hello again everyone!
I promise that this upcoming week will yield more relevant posts to my job search, as I WILL get back on track with it. I will I will I will. Does someone out there want to be my accountability partner on that? Or you know, just post angry comments on my posts when I tell you I'm not doing anything? Haha, maybe that is what I need.
Anyway, I decided to extend the post-comps break for a bit and take the weekend to go visit my family and friends back home. I'm currently sitting at the counter in my kitchen while my dad makes lunch, and I couldn't be happier. This trip came at the perfect time and has been oh so refreshing. It's great to be back in a place that feels so familiar, to see so many people that I love and that love me, and to just be at home. So so wonderful.
I also wanted to take advantage of a weekend trip home since right now it's only a 6-7 hour drive, and a few months from now....who knows? It could be a 6-7 hour flight!! (Well, airport experience, haha - I'm not looking for positions overseas) I'll let you in on a little secret of mine -- I love my family so much. And my home town (even though I hate it sometimes too). And my friends from my undergrad career, even if we are pretty spread out. And I love my grad school life right now, and the friends I have made there. And sometimes when I think about how hard it was to leave my home and go to grad school, I get really overwhelmed thinking about doing it all over again so soon - and this time, there's not cohort of peers to bond with easily. Being in a new place out on my own is really exciting, but it also makes me want to pass out with anxiety. Awesome.
Okay, I'm going to not dwell on that for now because there's nothing I can do about it, except do my best to find a position in a place that I fit and that makes me happy. I told my parents at breakfast this morning that I was going to cancel my job search and just move home in May, but they didn't seem to be too receptive to that idea (though I know they would let me move home if I needed to). Who wouldn't want meals cooked for them all the time? Ha.
So, I guess the recap of right now would be that I'm really immersed in feelings of excitement and anxiety about the whole process, and things will probably stay that way for a while. But I know one thing - I have an amazing support system, both at current home and home home, and I know that I will get through this.
Oh, and I got offered a first round interview on Friday, so that's a plus!
Chat again next week, folks. And I'm serious about that accountability partner.
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